My name is Lauren. A 23-year old girl born and raised in the sweating-once-you-place-your-hand-on-the-door-handle humidity of the South. I grew up in a small city. My childhood and adolescence consisted of riding bikes around the neighborhood, going fishing, making up games with my younger sister, swimming in our backyard pool, and going to the mall and the movies – because that’s all there was to do. I haven’t traveled the world. The farthest west I’ve ever been is Texas, and the farthest north I’ve been is Missouri. I’m currently in graduate school at a university that is only an hour and a half away from where I grew up.
Why do I tell you all of this? To show you that I’m not special. My every day life is not “Instagram worthy”. On this blog, you won’t see pictures of breathtaking mountains. Because where I live, we don’t have any. I will not be anything but real on here.
I’m your typical young woman struggling with her body image, self-worth, and insecurities, and learning to lay them all down before the feet of Jesus. I’ve spent my life since I was 14 indulging in love, comfort, and admiration from boyfriends – hoping they would meet my unmet needs (which all ended up in mutually shattered hearts, in case you were wondering).
My common knowledge is minimal. The random facts that most people know, I usually am clueless about. More often than not – I’m the girl in the room who is way too gullible and asks a lot of questions – sometimes it’s cute and funny; but to me, it’s usually embarrassing. But I say that to prove to you that intellect doesn’t reveal the Word of God to you – the Holy Spirit does. And if I can end up with pages upon pages of words written about what God has taught me about Himself, that’s the evidence of the Holy Spirit.
You will find that my heart is naturally sinful and broken. My flesh sits with her hands outside the grocery basket trying to swipe everything off the shelves of the world aisle while the Lord has already given me everything I need.
But you will also find the Jesus who has graciously dug into my wounds and given me what I’ve needed.
I’m a girl who wishes for you to be sure about your salvation. Because I spent a long time doubting mine. And rightly so – because when the Lord lifted the veil from my eyes to see His word and His love, I realized I had been in the darkness all that time.
My prayer is to touch at least one person’s heart out there, or encourage someone with a message that they needed to hear in that season of their life. It is truly God who has done this incredible work in me and the Spirit who puts on my heart these words to type.
May the Lord lavish His love, grace, and protection upon you.
“I have told the glad news of deliverance in the great congregation; behold, I have not restrained my lips, as you know, O Lord. I have not hidden your deliverance within my heart; I have spoken of your faithfulness and your salvation; I have not concealed your steadfast love and your faithfulness from the great congregation.” Psalms 40:9-10 (ESV)